Carlin passed away into the arms of Jesus this morning at 7 a.m. Pacific time.
Oh, when God called him Home, He chose to do it quickly. He was asleep.
I am so very grateful to our tender Heavenly Father for His care of Carlin over these past weeks. It has been only 5 weeks and 5 days since diagnosis, and it has been fast, though in some ways it has seemed much longer. What an amazing journey, from seeming full health to stepping into Glory.
We smile when we think that God took him on Easter weekend. Our Lynda laughed through tears as she said, “Isn’t this just like Dad, to go at a big event! He liked big events.” We all agree.
I had been up several times with him during the night last night, tending to his needs, and then lying back down on my mat beside his bed. A nurse had told me last week that I needed to be close in case he tried to get out of bed, and would fall. So I had a good mat there.
At 4:30 I was awake (when I talked with our three daughters this morning, they all said they were awake as well) and I just started praying, out real loud, so I could be sure Carlin would hear my voice, and I prayed over everything. I prayed loudly over the upcoming graveside service and the Memorial Service, I prayed over everyone individually who will be involved, I prayed that God would prepare people-- everyone who will come and be in attendance, that God in His mighty power and by His Spirit would do amazing things in peoples’ hearts, and that there would be more people in the Kingdom because of this final thing/part of Carlin’s ministry on earth.
I prayed through Scripture promises, and for family and others, and praised God, as I went through His attributes, etc., etc., etc. for about an hour and a half. Then I went to the kitchen to get breakfast, went back and stood at the foot of Carlin’s bed and prayed some more. I picked up all the pieces of my mat and tucked them away, and swept up the floor. (Carlin had been losing a lot of hair because of his chemo infusion.) A nurse was expected later today. Then I went back to the kitchen to get my cup of coffee, and to start the computers—Carlin’s and mine—to see if there had been any overnight mail. That was when I went back to check on Carlin and found he was gone. I could tell immediately. It was written on his face. I watched for breathing movement on his quilt, and felt for his heartbeat, and then tears and sobs were all over the place.
Oh. It is so overwhelming to think he is gone. It feels like I am in a vast ocean, with huge swells / waves of grief and then quiet moments of assurances, then another wave. You who have lost someone know exactly what that is. It is a new experience to walk through.
How grateful I am to God for what he gave me in Carlin. What a life. We did so much together. I am so grateful that God is my “Portion and my Cup” for now and for whatever days God leaves me here on earth. I have every reason to treasure Heaven more than ever before. Oh, I wish I could see the reunion in Heaven today!
I am so grateful for my precious family. Cheri and Lynda are coming to stay with me for a couple of days. Yesterday Cheri and Howard were here and Howard sat with Carlin to tell him all he wanted to of appreciation for their relationship and he sat and sang to Carlin. Other dear friends have come several times to sing over him and pray over him.
There will be a graveside service for Carlin on Friday, May 2. The Memorial Service for Carlin will be at Willingdon Church, 4812 Willingdon Ave., Burnaby, BC at 10:00 a.m. on Saturday, May 3. Pray that great glory will be brought to Jesus’ name.
Thank you for following Carlin’s journey over these past days.
Special thanks to you, Ray, for what you have done for Carlin and I. Truly a gift that has reached out, informed, and helped us to process the journey.
Love to you all,
Marcia and family
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